Wednesday, May 19, 2010


So it is bad that I totally forgot I had this blog. What in the world is going on in my head. I'm so confused and lost in this world. My marriage seems to be failing, my daughter is 4 going on 40, work sucks and there just doesn't seem to be any light at the end of my tunnel.

I see all these other blogs from people that blog everyday. Why can't I do that?? Do I forget? Not in the mood? What? I haven't even been keeping Kayleigh's up. I guess i shouldn't have two blogs especially when i can't keep one up. Pity party I know!!!

God I need to get my life back on track. But where to start. With me! I need to love me and me first! But I don't love me, I hate me. I hate the way I look. I want to change everything. Is that going to make everything else better, NO! But if I feel better about myself then everything else should just fall into place right???

Enough with that!!!!

Mini goals I am giving today.

1. Start walking every morning. I don't need to sleep in. I need to get up and get my day started early.

2. Quit eating out. I need to fix dinner, breakfast and lunch myself.

Let's start with those 2 first. My long term goal and I'm not sure why I'm obsessing about getting pregnant, but I want another baby. Is that possible now? NO! Will it be possible?? YES, if I do what I need to do to get my body healthy and ready to take on a baby.

So today starts my journey and my new life.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Day 2

Last night was the same. Watched the biggest loser while I ate as usual. That is always so degrading to me.

One of the agents email was hacked into and sent a crazy email to every one in her contact list including the mayor of the city I live in saying she was stranded in UK. Craziness!!

I don't have much to say. I started reading Eclipse last night. The third book in the Twilight Saga. Yes I have read it before but the movie is getting ready to come out in June so I want to read the book and see what the differences will be. Although I'm half way through the!!

Oh took Kayleigh to dance. That place is insane. I hope she doesn't want to do it again next year. That has cost me sooo much money. They are now asking for 45.00 for the DVD of the recital. Shesh. The costumes were 130.00. So hopefully we will do something different.

Well my day at work is almost over. Will post tomorrow.

Oh and tomorrow is my anniversary. I'm interested in seeing if he remembers or does anything since all the drama that has been going on. I doubt it.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Day 1

So welcome to my blog. I doubt that anyone will ever read this, however I am making a vow to myself to blog every day. I am also going to set up a blog for Kayleigh my daughter. I will blog for her everyday as well until she is able to blog herself.

Why you ask?? Well I have always loved writing in a journal and well you know, now a days, writing is the thing of the past. So here is my 21st century journal. I hope to post pictures, answer questions and just keep up this everyday. is April 27th, 2010 (Tuesday). I just got back to work from a mini vacation. I went to Arlington, VA for a Twilight Convention Tour. Yes I am one of them. I am obsessed with the Twilight Saga, however, there are more obsessed fans out there. I had a blast. I met Michael Welch, Kiowa Gordon, Tinsel Korey, Edi Gathagi, Peter Facinelli and Justin Chon. I also met the members of the Hillywood Show. Check them out....

During our trip I met another fanatic Lauren. We exchanged information and now chat as well. She is from Maryland. But that is what I wanted out of this exeperience. I wanted to meet people from all over, not just the stars. Mission Accomplished!!!

So I'm thinking thats it for now. Kayleigh's birthday is coming and so is her birthday party this weekend. Look forward to post about how that is driving me nuts. LOL!